WOW!..Something Astonishing I read in Sruta Kirti Prabhu's dairy.
Prabhupada: "One of my disciples is simply waiting -- when will the old man die so that I can become guru."
Sruta kirti dasa: "The mood was very sombre and intense. I've already described how he asked his disciples not to touch his feet saying, 'By their touching my feet I have to suffer. They may not be trying to achieve some goal by touching my feet, still the spiritual master has to suffer by accepting their sinful reactions.'
Prabhupada: "One of my disciples is simply waiting -- when will the old man die so that I can become guru."
Sruta kirti dasa: "The mood was very sombre and intense. I've already described how he asked his disciples not to touch his feet saying, 'By their touching my feet I have to suffer. They may not be trying to achieve some goal by touching my feet, still the spiritual master has to suffer by accepting their sinful reactions.'
Now Srila Prabhupada said things to me that I ...did not comprehend. It was very disturbing. The words cut through my heart. He mentioned it to me on two separate occasions during his illness saying, 'One of my disciples is simply waiting -- when will the old man die so that I can become guru.'
I could not believe what I was hearing. I never imagined that day that Srila Prabhupada would not be with us. I was young and naive and thought Srila Prabhupada would be with us until he was 100 years old. Thoughts of his being gone and others giving initiation had never been a subject of conversation.
He sat up in his bed one time and looking at me he said, "This illness is because EIGHTY PERCENT OF THE LEADERS ARE NOT FOLLOWING." (Sruta Kirti diary, Tuesday, March 20, 2012)
Right, Nanda Kumar said he had to leave when they were all laughing as Prabhupada was departing; Sruta Kirti says he knew all along that they were plotting to become gurus; Brahmananda / Gargamuni / Hansadutta / Malati / Guru das / Mukunda and others must have known Kirtanananda and Bhavananda were gay guys from the early days; Tamal certainly knew his pals were deviating and falling all the time; Bhagavan literally hated Hansadutta so he knew Hans was not an acharya; and so on an and so on ad infinitum; and so yes you are right, hardly none of these folks made any public protest the way we did; and when we reported child molesting not only the leaders but most of the rank and file would not help us protest, so yes, lots of people knew this whole thing was coming off the rails and ISKCON was going down the tubes, but for various reasons they did not protest. So yes, Prabhupada was counting on all these people to protest, they didn't. I cannot answer why, but its now history. ys pd
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