DISTRESS MESSAGE FROM MOTHER KISHORI DEVI DASI

[PADA: If anyone can help this lady, that would be nice. ys pd]

MESSAGE FROM MOTHER KISHORI DEVI DASI

In French her condition is called Infarctus. I just received a message from Kishori Prabhu this morning. It appears that New Mayapur temple has not allowed her to visit the temple for quite some time now which is a big part of her stress. In her broken English this is part of what she wrote to me:

THANK YOU, I AM VERY WEAK. I CAN NOT UNDERSTAND THAT SO MANY DEVOTES LIKE ME ALSO ARE NOT ALLOWED TO SEE GOD. WHO ARE THEY TO DO THAT? 

Guna I am simply weeping, weeping.

IT IS BEYOND ALL CRIME FOR ME. AFTER ALL THE PAIN SRILA PRABHUPADA TOOK TO DELIVER KRISHNA, TO OPEN TEMPLES WITH KRISHNA, DOING AS MUCH AS HE COULD. I AM CERTAINLY ONE OF THE MOST WRETCHED PERSONS AND THAT IS WHY I GOT THE MERCY OF GOUR NITAI. 

HOW IT IS POSSIBLE IN OUR BELOVED ISKCON OF SRILA PRABHUPADA THEY CAN FORBID ANY SOUL TO HAVE KRISHNA'S DARSHAN FOR ANY REASON. IT IS OUR ONLY HOPE THE GREAT HELP. OTHERWISE SRILA PRABHUPADA WOULD NOT HAVE DONE IT ALL JUST TO FORBID A SOUL TO HAVE DARSHAN. 

IT IS TO DO DO THE WORST CRIME IN THE NAME OF SRILA PRABHUPADA. I FEEL SUCH TERRIBLE PAIN IN MY HEART. 

Like big arrows. It is so deep pain. YOU SEE I AM NOT ADVANCED SPIRITUALLY. NOT EVEN MATERIALLY. NO PIOUS ACTIVITIES. HOPELESS AND YET SRILA PRABHUPAD CAME AND HE BUILT A BIG FAMILY, A BIG HOUSE FOR ALL. DID ANYONE OF US THINK THAT ONE DAY WE MAY BE FORBIDDEN TO ENTER OUR OWN HOME? WHEN SRILA PRABHUPADA WAS PHYSICALLY WITH US, HE ALWAYS FIGHT AGAINST ANY SUCH NONSENSE. DEAR GUNA WHAT WE ARE? WHAT WE ARE? IF YOU THINK IT CAN HELP PASS THIS LETTER ON. THE INFARCTUS IS A BIG ONE.

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BEHIND THIS ABUSE IS HRIDAYA CAITANYA. HE IS THE SCOUNDREL WHO CONTROLS THE NOUVELLE MAYAPUR, HE IS RESPONSIBLE FOR THE SUICIDE OF A LADY PUJARI , AND NOW IF MOTHER KISHORI DIED IT WILL ALSO BE HIS RESPONSIBILITY.